We can't seem to "know what we are" or "find our Self" without trying to find that "self" as some "thing". What does this mean?
It means that we are forever trying to make the subject into an object, an experience. Isn't this what identification is? The body is objective to you - you know the body - the body does not know you. Thoughts are objective to you - you know thoughts - thoughts do not know you.
So to be the subject means to be that which knows, that which is aware of. But "that" isn't a thing - that "subjective self" isn't a thing which is found in any terms the mind can present. Nowhere can you locate the actual subject. You are the subject of this present experience - but the subject cannot be found AS another thing. Therefore it isn't difficult because that subject is always perfectly present at all times. It just isn't something the mind can turn into something, it cannot make a NOUN out of it.
So we might notice that almost all of the spiritual search is trying to make a NOUN or "thing" out of the subject - some bright light, some sublime feeling, some mystical experience.
The subject is perfectly present at all times - you are here. That is undeniable. But how to do you know you are here? How do you know the subject? You know it BECAUSE awareness is happening. You know it BECAUSE experience is known. For it to be known the subject must be present.
So instead of searching for a special experience as a manifestation of the subject or "knowing your Self", recognize that simply because experience is known, you know yourself. Simply because any experience is present, YOU must be there. You are that capacity BY WHICH the experience is known, whatever it is.
Therefore no experience is discarded - there are no conditions on experience. ANY experience is evidence of your Self. Or we might say, to know experience is to know your Self, automatically.
This is where the search goes down the rat hole, because we want to discard particular experience in preference for a special experience of our Self. It will always be futile, because the "Self" is evident in all experience. There is no validating experience. THIS is IT. You are HERE. You are present. And you are aware.
That presence of awareness is the evidence of your Self. Coming to find what you are is simply giving up the need for some special experience and acknowledging your perfect presence as it is, right now.