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We can never arrive at a new state of Being. This spiritual search is often targeted towards a new experience or state. We may expect our Being to change with some realization. This is false.
You ARE. THAT is a fact. WHAT you are is what is in dispute. You take yourself as something which came about when that body-mind was formed. We realize that this idea was always false, although it was previously unquestionable, so much so that we relied on that idea throughout the search - and it really impeded our understanding of all these pointers.
WHAT you are is THAT which IS. THAT which IS manifests in a trillion-trillion ways - some of those ways provide a window or way of knowing your existence. Those experiences are confused with independent existence - therefore you think you will end when the experience ends.
I can tell you it does not end, but you must come to that conclusion on your own. And it's really Life coming to that conclusion - the gold ring doesn't realize it is gold. Gold realizes it wasn't really ring after all. The identification with ring is lost, that is all realization is.
Stick with it - find pointers that resonate and ignore all that doesn't. There is a lot of bullshit spirituality out there. You are Life itself. You may realize that or not - but even if not it's ok. You are still just Life itself - knowing itself through this really amazing and cool mechanism called "ME".
And that "ME" experience can be good, bad and ugly. If you're riding the wave AS "ME", the ride is really bumpy. But if you realize that this "ME" is just another wave of the Ocean that you ARE, then whatever form that wave might take is seen in the proper perspective.
YOU Exist. Wave is something that comes and goes - IN you, OF YOU. It's transient pattern doesn't mean that you are transient.