Can you find Awareness?
What is the location for Awareness? Where is it located? Can you find it? Can you put your finger on it?
Awareness is undeniably there, yet it's not anywhere in particular. It's everywhere. It's everything. Is this a mystical experience? Is this a new state? No. It's already the case, only it's taken as "ME-seeing-world". Awareness is the nondual reality, the present state of affairs, however it's being translated as a subject seeing an object.
If you had to locate Awareness, you wouldn't be able to point to anything in particular, because Awareness encompasses everything, every single experience, every feeling, every thought, the slightest sensation, the most subtle perception.
If you point to the wall, you're pointing to Awareness, so to speak. The wall doesn't exist outside of Awareness. The finger which is pointing is in Awareness. The one who is pointing is also objective within Awareness. Isn't this rather obvious? It's almost silly to have to point it out - it's the most primary, fundamental and obvious aspect of reality - the entirety of that so-called individual is an appearance IN this Awareness, which pervades and shines unconditionally, unfettered, unaffected.
If we had to say what we are, ultimately, we might notice the obviousness of this bright and ever-present presence, this space of knowing, this solid block of nondual reality which we intimately know as "awareness".
You cannot find it conceptually because you ARE it. Yet wherever you look, there it is. Any appearance, any experience is nothing BUT that limitless Awareness that you are. Yet to speak of appearances, we are still operating in duality and requiring a witness or awar-er of the appearance, requiring the appearance to be other than the witness. Therefore the witness and appearance are provisional understandings and are ultimately discarded.
Awareness is then recognized to be all there is - subject and object are realized as taking Awareness to be split up - this is something the mind does naturally and is not inherently problematic. But when that subject is seen to be separate from the object, when that subject is seen as an independently-existing entity, the constant and compulsive self-reference brings suffering.
When we recognize that Awareness has never been lost, never obscured, never the result of spiritual experiences or practices - when we recognize that each perception IS that Awareness that you are, then every experience is enlightenment, every appearance is a miracle. Then the mind carries on but that binding nature of thought is dissolved. The urge to apply experiences to a self-reference falls away naturally. Awareness shines as it always has, but it's known to be your own true essence.
Yet the instant it is searched for, the simplicity and obviousness of this space-like presence of Awareness has been missed, overlooked. Yet even the overlooking, the seeking, the ignorance of your true Self is irrelevant, because the search itself takes place as a series of thoughts, experiences and ideas within THAT which is being sought after.
Nothing at all is required to be what you already are. THIS, right here and now, is IT. THIS, right here and now, is Awareness itself, nondual reality, one without a second, Advaita. It isn't difficult to find. It's inescapable.











10 comments:
yes
this indeed is the paradox
what is ever present
takes so much effort to come into awareness !
Meditation is the Way to de-eclipse this awareness
narinder_bhandari@yahoo.co.in
I meditated for 20 years ala Mahrishi Mahesh Yoga. All I got was a sore butt!
Its like awareness pouring into awareness!
Thanks Randall!
Randall,
When everything appears in the "I", why cannot that one "I" or oneness choose to change any appearances within it ?
Thanks
Dennis,
Hello again my friend. Love to you.
Anonymous,
To ask why can't the "I" change the appearance, is to imply the "I" is apart from or separate from the appearance.
What chooses to spin the earth around the sun? What chooses to beat the heart and pump the blood? These are all going on just fine without any choice - therefore apparent choice is only in mind, in thought.
Instead of inquiring about oneness choosing, find out what this "I" really is. Then you can answer this question yourself - or find the question really has no meaning.
You already intimately know "I" - yet WHAT is "I" you do not know. You only know assumptions about "I" - identifications placed upon "I".
Why is it that "I" is so intimately known yet there is still a search for it?
We might be suddenly caught off guard, caught between two thoughts - we might be blindsided by the realization that this "I" is in fact the presence of changeless and limitless awareness. We may realize that this is what you were all along, only confusing limited ideas with your Self.
You are limitless - you have no boundaries, no size, no shape, no color. Nothing can be apart from what you are.
Simply discern between this pure "I" and the objective content. Body and thoughts are known to you, objectified BY you, after all.
love
randall
Randall,
My question came from an understanding that everything appears within this oneness. If thats the case, is this "I" or oneness the creator or controller of everything that appears in it ?
Pls shed some light
Thanks
Anonymous,
Speaking of creation and control is to speak of the appearance from that level - a relative level. We must be speaking of a particular event or thing, which is either created or controlled.
This assumes the separate existence of that which is created or controlled. So to speak of it being created or controlled already assumes its existence as a thing or event, which assumes space and time as real.
It is mind which places this idea of "thingness" - separate thing-ness.
If there is nothing separate, there is nothing to create or control, yes?
That doesn't mean there isn't an appearance of things or events. But when we try to pin down what or who or how are these things or events being controlled, then we've already been spellbound by appearances, which is called Maya.
This applies also to your Self. The root thought is "I AM". "I AM" is the confirmation or certainty that you exist. Yet the mind, once again, places "thingness" and "event-ness" upon that "I AM" - in doing so it creates the idea that this "I AM" is particular, individual, personal, separate. It creates that "I AM" as a separate being, a person, and from there hangs the idea that this body-object and thought-object IS that "I AM".
From there we say "I AM hungry" or "I AM thinking". Hunger and thinking is appearance to you - it is applied or taken AS you, which it is not.
And from this most basic confusion of what is "I AM" or "I", the entire world is created - as the opposite of "I". As a thing, there must be all that is "not-I". So we can say the world is created - this is Maya once again. As a separate "I", I must admit to a separate world.
Yet that "I" is not the object-body or the object-thought. Both appear TO "I" - therefore we discern what IS "I" and what is "not-I" fully - we unwrap this identification with the body and mind as the "I" and come to find the "I" is in fact awareness or knowing.
And awareness or knowing is found to be not limited - it has no width, no height, no dimensions whatsoever. It is not objective - it is YOU - that presence which is always-here.
And as a limitless presence, it is found to encompass the body, thoughts, and world. We say these "things" are IN awareness but it's not that awareness is the container and the things are IN it.
That computer screen you are seeing - how far is it from awareness? You assume distance because of space, yet fail to notice that even space you objectify - space is also IN awareness - how far from awareness is space?
Both are zero distance from awareness. If you see the computer screen, you are noticing only awareness. Every experience IS your Self, my friend.
love
randall
Thanks Randall ! Your explanation is clearest.
This does not leave any choice for the mind to imagine what "i" is.
It goes back to your earlier discussion on "Neti Neti" - neither this or that.
Thanks a lot again !
Hi Randall,
Following Takuin's beautiful example, I have created a meme called 'The End, The Beginning: A Silent Post'.
I have tagged you because, I know this is slightly off-topic, but I would love to see 'your' thoughts about the End and the Beginning without using words.
Please follow this link to find the full instructions: http://blogwithoutaname.com/a-silent-post
Lune x
“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.”
- T.S. Eliot
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