Right here and now, your true essence is wholeness. There is nothing lacking, nothing to get, nothing to gain. You are perfect before the next seeking thought, before the next book is read, before the next meditation.
Wholeness is your true nature. Reality is one without the possibility of a second, and you are THAT. The very essence of all appearance is that Oneness. Yet there is a sticking point - "I must find the answers."
It is believed that if you don't find the answers, then you are lacking something. This situation requires the existence of some separate entity who may or may not find answers. This situation suggests that this separate entity is not presently whole and can find wholeness through spirituality.
Yet the Nondual Traditions state that you are ALREADY WHOLE. So seeking wholeness is ABSOLUTELY a sign of missing the point.
Therefore find out where is the assumption that you are NOT whole. Find out what concept or assumption is hanging around and constantly projects the idea that you are NOT Wholeness.
Instead of waiting for some experience to come, some validating flash of wisdom and lights - find out HOW this Wholeness is mistaken for separateness. Look right now at the necessary assumptions which insert themselves at every turn, at the tail end of every "pointer".
It is the belief that YOU are a separate entity, born and later to die.
So examine this belief. Find out it's nature. Find out what exactly this separate entity is supposed to be. See that it's a mixture.
It's a mixture of the CERTAINTY of existence - what the mind calls "I AM" - and the objective content called "body-mind".
SEE that the difficulty in seeing through this false separate entity is there BECAUSE that "I AM-ness" is so strong and certain.
Vedanta says we must discriminate between reality and assumption. Reality is this unspoken or non-conceptual "I AM-ness" - the pure and certain knowledge that you ARE. THAT is tied up with the closest objects - the mind believes that this certainty of I AM MUST BE some "thing". So the most convenient "thing" is body-mind.
And AS a body-mind, you must have an opposite. AS a body-mind, your opposite is the world. AS a body-mind, you must have a limited duration and distance - space and time.
But you NEVER WERE limited in this way. It is only due to the mistaken mixture of this certainty of existence with objective content that this supposed "separate entity" is believed in.
Recognize that you ARE - find out why you are so certain. It isn't because you see a body and thoughts. It is because you are ALWAYS HERE and ALWAYS AWARE. That simple, obvious and ever-present being/knowing is IT. THAT survives the coming and going of Consciousness. THAT is the very essence of all appearance - no appearance has ever BEEN without that knowing presence.
Recognize this certain and intimate knowledge of existence - it IS before the next thought comes, taking this immediacy as some "thing", some separate and limited "thing".
The wholeness which is being sought after is always what you ARE. Seeking it requires that wholeness to be conceptualized into some "thing" - the very assumption obscures what is being sought.