Sunday, June 27, 2010

You are IT

When we pull back the covers and look at Vedanta, or any other nondual tradition, we find the same message.

The self IS the Self - that which you call the individual self IS the Self, the one essence, Brahman, God.

But taking it AS individual is to take it AS limited, automatically.  Because to point out one thing, you automatically oppose it to all other things.  To assert the existence of an individual is to simultaneously assert the existence or reality of other separate things.  

Trying to get rid of the individual is ridiculous.  Many pointers say to get rid of the individual - how can you get rid of what is not there?  

See that what you call the individual IS itself the Supreme, only giving it individual existence binds it, limits it.  Taking the equation of "ME-seeing-WORLD" as reality, you are binding your true Self to the temporal and spatial limitations of a body-mind.

Find out what that self really is, then see if it's actually bound to a body.  How to do this?

Notice that the "Self" is that which is aware of the world.  That's easy enough.

Now notice that the "Self" is that which is also aware of the body and mind - thoughts and feelings.

Can you admit that what you are is presently and always aware of the body-mind?  Can you admit that the mind is an experience to you?  

Notice the almost automatic resistance to this assertion.  That resistance is the veil, the obscuration, the habitual application of assumption over reality.

What is it, that is aware of both body and mind?  Where is it?  You come to find that you cannot place it, cannot locate it, cannot describe it, yet can never EVER deny it.

That "Self" is present and aware.  That "I" isn't an individual for the individual is a created idea in thought.  That individual isn't "I".  

That individual is a feeling, a memory, a story.  The individual is another EXPERIENCE.  

It isn't "I".

"I" is the present subject-ivity - that which objectifies everything.  As such it cannot become an object of knowledge.  It cannot be known objectively.

So remain with that pure "I"-ness - untangle the identification, which is only a mixing-up or confusion of that present subjective-knowing with experience.  "I am thinking", "I am living"...

Stay with that pure "I"-ness alone - there is no need to focus on the experience at all - let it be, and in letting it be there is no longer a condition or need to make experience different.  There is a detachment, a dispassion towards experience.  It does not matter.

That "I"-ness, called Atma in Vedanta, is your Self.  That Atma IS Brahman, the Supreme, the totality, the one Essence.  It is obvious except for the insistence that it is limited by a body, born into a body, finite and heading towards death.

We often, in the spiritual search, find that teachings or pointers are confusing.  They are confusing because we are trying to figure out how a limited individual can reach limitlessness, Oneness.  Obviously it cannot.  If the individual is a reality then all the spiritual teachings are bullshit.

They are not.  Let go of the idea that you were born, the idea that you are a limited "person", and that Atma or "I" or Self is then obviously all there is.

6 comments:

Triza said...

...Stay with that pure "I"-ness alone - there is no need to focus on the experience at all - let it be, and in letting it be there is no longer a condition or need to make experience different. There is a detachment, a dispassion towards experience. It does not matter.....
what comes to mind when i read this is how much i have wanted this "I" to be something.With every experience its always been how i can fit it to properly describe the self i feel myself to be.With every change in experience creates the confusion since "i" remain present no matter what appears.
There is truly a resistance to the assertion that i am not the body nor the mind and yet the question who i am i does not seem to lead anywhere.

Randall Friend said...

Triza,

Your Self isn't an experience. It is that by which experience is known. Is it not?

Yet you cannot find it as another experiencer, another thing in the world. For it is already beyond all experience. It is the capacity FOR experience, the open space which allows all experience to be.

We call this "knowing". You are this present activity of knowing. Isn't that truly what "I" means?


love
randall

nestemail said...

"Your Self isn't an experience. It is that by which experience is known. Is it not?"
"We call this "knowing". You are this present activity of knowing. Isn't that truly what "I" means?"

It is completely clear and obvious to me, i understand that not only intellectually, i've come once to samadhi state and it was the SELF.

But now i feel that if the Self is beyond the world and beyond 'me' then 'me' cannot come back "there" and there is nothing to do and nothing could bring me closer to what i am, so it feels hopeless. The real me is always in background but there is no way to be the self itself ;-)

Confused.

Freedom said...

There is a total sense of I have not got it yet! I have no authority to speak on this subject as I am still seeking.

all the words wash over me and yet sometimes they are alive.
I know it is here in reality now where it can only be and nowhere else what i am looking for

But the feeling is still there... I have not found. I know this is it here. I know it couldn't be anything other than this. But i am still looking. I still have not found. That is what is happening. That is reality even if it is false from another perspective.

I cannot find ME but I cannot find the ME that is trying to find the ME.

I know you can't help, but I am typing anyway. Hope needs to run its course

Randall Friend said...

You ARE the Self - the Self is just a word to point back to that which is present and aware, right now. Does that have to be reached?

What you take yourself to be is only in identification. What knows the body, mind and world? That knowing is not in need of reaching - it is inescapable.

Randall Friend said...

Hope, but investigate.

Who is this person looking, who has not got it yet? Is there really such a thing? Is this person a reality or only an assumption? A belief? Can you seriously find this person or are you relying on imagination?

The person is a field of experience - sensations, feelings, thoughts, memories, stories, images. These are combined into a concept called "person". It comes and goes as experience to you.

You are that which knows the "person". As such you are already beyond and don't need to be "there yet".