What will finally be required to resolve the spiritual search?
If we try to analyze all these paradoxical pointers, will we ever come to an intellectual certainty? Will some experience arrive which validates? Will there finally be some spiritual "state" which is the end?
Are these pointers describing an experience? Are they describing a special "state"? No. But there is still an insistence from a seeking perspective, on the future arrival of some experience which will finally come, like a light from Heaven, to bring enlightenment upon you. That fallacy will continue to stand as a brick wall until it's finally let go of.
What is being pointed out is not something to attain, not something which will arrive. It is something which is ever-present. It is something which is not hidden, although it cannot be known through the standard filter of mind, through the template of "thingness", which is what reality is generally built upon.
It cannot be known in that way, yet it is ever known. It is already known. It is already obvious. It is already here. It isn't yet to come, when all these pointers have finally been digested, when all thoughts have been manipulated correctly, when some worldview has been changed. That's not what this is about at all.
THIS is what it's about. Just THIS. What is THIS? Just this moment, right here, right now. THIS.
You may say, "THIS is me, looking at the world." But that right there is where THIS is taken to be duality. Taken to be a world made up of parts. Is it? How can you say that with certainty?
Where are you seeing from, right here and now? Can you pinpoint a location? Where exactly is this "person" you've taken yourself to be?
You say it's "in the head". Where exactly in the head is it? What is in the head? A brain? Does that brain completely fill up the head? Yes. So the entire content of that head is brain. And are there gaps in that brain? Is there a space somewhere in that brain where you reside? No - it's all brain, tissue, cells.
So are you tucked away somewhere in the brain matter? Are you a little entity wandering through the curving matter of the brain?
The brain generates electrical and neuro-chemical reactions. Are you a reaction? Are you a chemical? Are you a jolt of electricity? Are you blood ? Are you a cell? What else is in there?
Are you behind the eyes, sitting there? What exactly is the makeup of that "person"?
Isn't this idea that you are somewhere in there just a nice idea, just a convenient concept?
If there is an openness, an honesty which allows for the challenging of these mere assumptions, then what are you left with? The "person" is and always has been only an assumption, a learned belief. There is no person residing in the head. So what is left?
The pure functioning is left - the brain is generating thoughts, the heart is beating, the lungs are breathing, the body moves in various ways, in concert with these thought. Life IS... There is nothing wrong with the obvious nature of this functioning, yet when the erroneous concept of "person" comes in, then all of this is applied to "someone", to "ME". That is the "person"-al. It's personal. It's individual. It's all relative to ME.
You are not a person. There is no such thing as a person. But you are certainly there. So what can you be?
You must be Life itself, seeing itself, presently looking at itself. Aware-ness IS nondual Being - no individual - nothing personal. Only ever THIS, right here and now.